It's been 1week++ edy (pls ignore me)

Well i think it almost 2weeks, u didnt on9. yeah u got on9 but then i didnt. but surely i will on9 the day after rite. but u didnt. then i start to think that, i shud stay at home ard 8pm~11pm coz i scare later u on9 but i didnt.

u too bz there. but im tired waiting here. at least a "hi" msg in my phone will make my day. u dont have my number coz u save my number at ur old phone, yeah u told me be4. hope u will read some msges dat i leave in ur inbox, i got give my number down there. u said u dun have hp there, ok this time i guess its ur fault, coz u give ur hp to ur cousin, u r going oversea but u didnt bring any comm device. weird for me as in, hey we live in wud century nw ?

u told me be4 u go aussie, u said u will go there for 1week only n will spend the nex week with me. i even make plans for us, buying heels with u, watching too fast n too furious 4, enjoying food n chatting with u. then the day be4 u back to My, u said ur fren open up the restaurant edy n u have to start work there. im speechless dat time.

yeah i got sms ur cousin few times, but no replied. dats already make me to think negatively. i even thinking of calling ur old number using another number (prvate number). but i dont dare. scared if u answer it, scared if u lie to me, scared if a girl answerd it and u r xtually still in KL.

its pain for me to keep waiting n waiting w'out knowing wud will happen nex. sometimes i think, wud steps shud i take if sumthing bad happen. as in u dont want me anymore. with wud we had done together be4, surely hard for me to forget bout it.

frustated, feeling lonely, speechless, feel stupid, tired, depress, tension n emo